After 5 meetings… Yesterday was my first official “start day” in OA 12 steps for my eating disorder. I have eliminated all sugar, flour, wheat, and binge eating from my life. Today I start weight training again. I now have the mental, emotional, spiritual, tools, steps, and the daily/weekly group support I need to change my life and my health for good. This much knowledge and daily/weekly support is something I have never had before so I am looking forward to the future! I did my “before” photos last night (I have gained all of my weight back+) but I am not sure if I should post the photos this time and do weekly posts and public “check ins” with you all. I am kind of embarrassed. You all have seen me do this every year now for the last 3 years or so and now I am really scared… Crazy “me” scared of posting things?!?!? Am I scared I will “publicly fail” again or am I scared of what my friends and family will think of me and that I am no longer inspiring people that I am just looking like a joke? Part of me wants to post and video blog and blog about this and share and inspire the masses who might also be going thru this or inspire those that need help to finally get help… and part of me wants to keep this private and be quiet. (so not like me) I even recently made my Facebook profile private and will soon be eliminating people in my friends list. (I really do not have almost 5,000 friends that need to see where I am and what I am doing all the time. <<<< But that is a separate topic I will discuss later… I got side tracked ok… The thing that is different about TODAY is that I am not doing this to be “perfect” or look good… I am doing it this time to FEEL GOOD, BE GOOD TO THOSE AROUND ME, and BE HEALTHY! I have spent the last many months being kinder to myself so my mindset is like it has never been before starting this repeated yet NEW journey. I know now that I have had a problem with binge eating that goes back sooooooo many years but I worked out 4 hours a day long ago and so you never saw the results of my sugar addiction and actions. If I continue down this path of binge eating and unhealthy behavior I will die… Period! So many Mary mind questions… ARGH! Any thoughts on this are appreciated as I grow with you and appreciate your knowledge as I work thru this process. Should I post about it in video and photo form? Take you on this journey with me? My head is spinning… Thank you! ❤ YOU! Mary Lou
Thru my 8 year battle with illness and multiple knee surgeries… Going from a size 0 to over 176 lbs. I lost my ability to be strong and disciplined. I kept getting depressed and giving up on myself. I HATED what I saw in the mirror and I would have anxiety about having to get dressed because none of my clothes fit. I was embarrassed to see my friends in LA because most people remember me as the “Fitness Chic” and in my head I could hear them whispering “OMG Mary got FAT!” (Not that anyone ever said that to me as I said it was all in my head) So then I would get super depressed again and cancel or flake. Not just because of my weight but also because I was feeling so sick for so many years at one point last year I just asked God to take me… “I’m done” (Then we immediately found out WHY I was sick from an intestinal parasite infection) Bikini Body Building Competing again is helping me to get that discipline back because of how committed I HAVE TO BE to a GOAL of strict diet and exercise. (This time as a VEGAN COMPETITOR) These competitions are also helping me to get completely healthy again which is going to benefit not only me but everyone around me, my work, my marriage, my friendships, my attitude, self-confidence, etc. I am also getting my body healthy and strong again to carry a BABY next year within a healthy body! 🙂 Not to mention in just the last week I have had hundreds of postings and emails from people telling me that I am inspiring THEM to get healthy and THAT is PRICELESS and worth everything I am doing 🙂 In a way I feel like I was supposed to have all of these challenges so that I could HELP OTHERS which really is my main purpose in life… The more I can help others every day helps me to be a better human
❤ to U from Mary Lou
My first #competitiontraining #progressphoto!! The last year has been challenging with finally learning about my intestinal parasitic infection that has made me sick for almost 8 years. I’ve been in painful treatments for a year now and we “think” I’m finally healed! I’m feeling GREAT! This has been such a growth journey of learning what to eat etc. on my 2nd year of becoming a #Vegan. My insides both mentally and physically have grown and healed beyond measure! I’m almost glad I’ve suffered for so long! I needed an ego check and time to become a better human. Because of my infection and other challenges as well as just old fashioned laziness… I’ve been yo yoing up and down with my weight. NOW THAT I FEEL HEALTHY AGAIN I HAVE A GOAL! I’m competing in my first bikini / bodybuilding competition show in 11 years on Nov. 2nd (Shelton, WA) and Dec. 14th (Culver City, CA) As of 8/18/2013 this is my Progress. @marylousandler
Here are the competitions…
November 2, 2013, Shelton, WA ~ 2013 NPC FitStop 24 Northwest Bodybuilding, Figure, Fitness, Bikini & Male Physique Championships *National Qualifier* ~ http://olympiabodybuilding.com/olybb/index.php/northwest-championships/contest-info
Dec 14, 2013, Culver City, California ~ NPC Excalibur Bodybuilding Championships *National Qualifier* ~http://lindsayproductions.com/13EventInfoEx.php
My start date was 8/1/2013 of dieting and training in baby steps the first two weeks. This week I’ve been hitting it HARD at the gym. The MIDDLE photo is me 8/18/2013. The far right photo is MY GOAL. (Me in 2002… not me now) But… WILL BE ME AGAIN SOON!! Hopefully I can inspire others to get healthy and fit 🙂 You CAN overcome obstacles! Love yourself ❤
I haven’t done a Mary Morphing update in awhile so here it is… We found out that my intestinal infection was not cured yet so I’ve been on my 4th parasite cleanse within the last year. This killing/cleansing process makes you lethargic, bloated, moody, itchy, acne prone, and to have strange food cravings because the parasites are fighting to survive. I have 3 more weeks of this cleanse. I am going to try harder to get back to exercising while during this cleansing process. I am not gonna lie… I really don’t feel up to it but I got a new bike yesterday to inspire me. Good news is I have not gained back any of the weight I lost in the last 6 months which is HUGE HEALING PROGRESS! I just have a little bloated uncomfortable Buddha belly by evening time every night. My goal is to lose another 20 lbs. to be a healthy and still curvy 125 lbs. I am not giving up and I am fighting the good fight!
Healthy Hugs to you from Mary Lou
FYI… So far I have had OVER 30 colonics in the last 5 months and 4 rounds of parasite treatments since August 2012. You can read more about it at “Mary Lou Health Update”
Here is the cleansing product I am using right now. I used 2 others including a medical strong prescription to rid me of the parasites before this one.
You can get it from my holistic practitioner in Tarzana and also ask her any questions you have. www.innerhealthcenter.com (I also designed her website) Her name is Deenie Robbins.
Also… Here is an educational video we shot, directed, and edited for my holistic practitioner with a lot of info on it as well.
ONE LAST THING… READ THIS BOOK!
The Body Ecology Diet: Recovering Your Health and Rebuilding Your Immunity by Donna Gates and Linda Schatz
Dear P90X2: So that’s what a good core workout feels like… I haven’t felt this in YEARS! I’m having a little trouble moving today after my first time with you yesterday… THANK YOU! May I please have another! #feb2013 #progressphoto #getlean2013 #fitnessjourney #fitness #fitinspiration #fitspiration #fitnessmotivation #fitlife #organic #Vegan #raw #juicing #juicecleanse #juiceeupmylife #weightloss #weightlossjourney #beachbody #p90x2 #training #core #workingonmy6pack
You gotta have GOALS to SUCCEED! My #getlean2013 goal is ME MOTIVATING ME!
Above is February’s progress photo and Below is from Aug. 2012 to Jan. 2013. My actual weight has stayed the same this last month as I am replacing fat with muscle I am getting leaner and smaller tho. I am liking what the mirror is showing me and paying no attention to the scale I am feeling FAB! I did a week of the AR perfectly and lost more inches than weight. Since I used to be a fitness competitor and dancer I have a lot more dense muscle mass than the average person. I wanted to do another AR but I am really addicted to hitting it hard working out right now (I haven’t felt this addicted in years to training) so I do not want to stop that while doing a juicing fast. I will reward myself with a juice cleanse again in a month or so… I haven’t seen my abs or been as lean as I used to be since 2004. I am so inspired more than ever before and looking forward to the future! Juicing has changed my life! Years ago I may have “looked” healthy as a fitness competitor but on the inside I was not healthy at all with not enough nutrients needed to be alkaline and disease free. I feel so much healthier and better at 42 than I have EVER in my life! Thanks Drew Canole andFitLife.tv!!
All this cleansing, juicing, eating clean, losing weight, and working out is making me feel SUPER SEXY! MEOW! #nomakeup #fitness #fitnessjourney #fitnessmotivation #fitinspiration #fitspiration #weightlossjourney #weightloss #getlean2013 #veganfitness #vegan #juicecleanse #cleanse #gettinglean #gettingmymojoback #gettingmysexyback